Starting Weight: 290
Who cares? I ate healthy. I exercised a little but what does it all really matter? It doesn't seem to make a bit of difference. I haven't seen the inside of a Fast Food joint in over a week. I have an intimate relationship with the treadmill at my work. What's it all for? To gain back all the weight (after being down 5lbs) for no apparent reason? I'm so frustrated and upset. I almost went to Burger King for lunch and just say "F this whole thing", but I didn't, I talked myself down from the ledge and had a bagel and some pasta salad. I don't want to give up, I hate how out of shape and over weight I am. I don't see how my wife can be attracted to me anymore and I don't have the energy to take my kids out and play really anymore. I hate it. I don't like being this way. So I try to change, I try to make the right choices, I try to do the right things and it gets me nowhere. I'm not going to stop getting older so I'm not going to stop trying but I need to find some motivation somewhere because I'm not getting it from the scale.
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